Time to Let off some Steam with style

If you know me or my moods any better, then seeing this blog post notification in your mail will make you go like..." ello ji..aur kuch hogaya abhi...she is back to state some quotes and bore us to death " ( look, I'm just writing this to make ya folks laugh but dont ya dare think the same okay? :P ) But no...for change I wanted to write this post because I really did take a longer than needed break from blogging..and today when I'm talking to my one genius friend about why he ain't writing a blog I was like...'Oh god....even I have a blog to write ' and here I am with absolutely no pre-planned content in ma head...and for reals came down to bore you to death....nope...just kidding again....cmon...bear with me...;)

Now when was the last time I updated my post? Somewhere in August ?! Ohh....September has been quite eventful, hawt and happening for me !! As per usual its a salad....with some ice cream that I would die for..and green leaves that I'd throw away when no one ain't looking . The emotional roller coaster I always ride on is still in full swing , up and functional but then I made it mostly my own because the other day I was boasting with my friend about 'serenity in solitude ' (God only know wat that means :P ) Anyway..I've been mostly happy,jumpy and crazy past these two months and very very busy in following Kim Kardashian and Kanye West on twitter and Instagram ( Yeah, my MIND WAS THAT DERANGED) and also gathering inside information about Ariana Grande's relationship timeline and not to mention counting the number of times Selena Gomez followed and unfollwed Jackass Beiber oops sorry Justin Beiber on Instagram...so yeah things have been pretty great !! ( wide grin :D and  a thumbs up  *NOT*)

But then I did have concerns about some training I should do and you wont believe my sleep schedule which I'mma definitely put up in my resume next time to highlight my adaptability to any kind of work hours ( lol, though that would mean that the company which will hire me might have to put up sleeping bags in their premises for 10 am needs :P ) but YOLooooooo son !!! Its been a real freak time and fun time for myself with myself and I assure you there is no bigger entertainment than being calm and let people unfold their drama for you !! But then I should say that a part of my time has been really well utilised by reading some amazing quotes about love , life and laughter and I would be more than eager to share some of my favourite with you, afterall I got these from amazing sources and I wouldn't wanna break the chain in spreading some smiles and thought ....

 This one told me to choose, though we need not always choose who our friends are we can definitely choose whom to follow and how to bring some light into our lives,

This one did stimulate me a lot especially following which I watched the Bollywood Mardaani and really made me wonder if we dint stand up for ourselves then who would !!

 And this one really did make me laugh and a word of caution is : The number 3 is only a figure , it might be different for different people !! :P :P

How about I end the blog with a perfect joke ? ;)

Heading off home for a perfect vacation.....happy diwali folks !!!!!!!

The Third Revelation

Back again and not with a bang though, i've chosen the day just before my placement interview and during the most important phase of my training as the perfect day to write my third blog post !!
Why??
Umm....becoz this is who i am...this is wat m made of....head full of fuzzy logic ( none useful ) and heart patched , punctured and pathetic !! Confinement makes me talk...talk so much that mistakes i ve once done seem so small before the mistakes m about to do...all my life i was taught to shut up shut up and shut up but i never paid a heed did i? I trusted blindly, lived freely and laughed shamelessly in a world where i should have hidden, been non-existent, live a day and then let go. I was told about the world, i was given a chance to experiment...i experimented but alas did not make notes !?! first time it was fault, second time it was fatal and now it became a part of how i live ...Is this how i am supposed to go on? All the belief in me , the lessons given to me ...have i put them in vain?

I believed in bigger things, I ve always talked and thought beyond my age but never did things that reflected the same. I still acted like a dork and waited for redemption at every step. I believed my idiotic insights so much that I failed to bother about what my external senses are clearly showing me. Does the quote 'Better late than Never ' work for everyone...is it valid any more in this current world where most of the morals I learned as a child are bygone and obsolete ? I ve adapted myself to people and surroundings at every stage in my life and at every price i paid....then why was I slow this time? Why did i not learn to embrace silence when i spent the last 6 years of my life believing in the destruction caused by communication at wrong places? Why did i even see myself there? Haven't i had more important dreams to fulfil? Haven't i lived every single day of the past to come to this part where i make best decisions in life and create a future for myself?

Yes i did and yes i will. I still believe in redemption, righteousness and value. There is still so much to learn,so many new mistakes and their lessons await. I want to be the change i want to reflect in my life . I love the fact that my fingers move the fastest and wisest in confusion and castigation . I go on with a proud feeling that m going to try and retaliate to the situations around me,make wise choices and create a purposeful future for me.

PPS : I am probably ending this post rather strangely and with a lot of unspoken feeling but this is wat i want and this is how it shall be. Thank you if u can relate and sorry if u were expecting any scoop.

The Endless Drama

Hello fellaaaasss,

how are u?? Long time no comments ? :p ...did u miss me? ( Lovely-Lol, i know, i know this is the first time u are probably getting spammed by my mail after u've comfortably forgotten by last bit , but cmon...this is called 'ego-complan')

Oh yeah....i forgot to give u the disclaimer..ya-da ya-da....

Disclaimer : Wait....Stop right there.....now honey, before u read any further lemme warn u !!....this piece today is going to be quiet gloomy and full of lame philosophical stuff u have to bear on ur facebook walls everyday already !! So if ur a frigging happy unicorn ( waddup iisuperwomanii reference !! ) in ur rainbow world then nah nah nah....why dont u open 'the happy page' in facebook which posts a lame picture of an under-nourished troll in an awkward posture and captions it "happiness is picking ur nose in public "(daaaa-fuqqq man !! ) !! well yeah in short this is a cat-call for all those dementors out there who feed on people's miseries and sorrows.....so if ur one of them who wants a reassurance that ur life is so much better than mine and can do with some tears from me to boost(/complan watever) ur ego then go ahead !!! Today is ur day *wink* *coolio*

Yup...m done and good to go.

 First of all, i am really angry on myself for staying away from writing again for longer than I promised myself. I was caught up in an emotional-mental storm ( hehe...enough guessing its just trainings n classes) and it took me an equal amount of another hurricane to finally open up this page and get my fingers going. I 've always thought people get what they really really wanted. Yeah, even before King Khan in Om Shaanti Om made u think that if we really wanted something so bad then the whole universe will conspire in bringing it you, i've believed it 'from the bottom of my heart to the core'. But then no one mentioned the terms and conditions applied did they?? No one told u the toll it takes nor the struggle required to achieve what u wanted. They made it look like just one sweat-filled song with inspirational lyrics that made ur blood boil and draft a 'things to do in life-time table' then and there, but how far did it get you? How far did it get me...well so far it just made me fire up and my laptop and continue the blog i ve so hopefully started.

The thing is....i am tired. I m done being a believer. I dont see anything i believe in anymore in the life around me. The people i meet today are not the people i meet tomorrow. The impressions left by events tend to change the whole course of your life. Everytime u try to blend in, it just seems u fall out. And each time the fall only gets harder. We cant be us, we cant be someone else. And if your not a fighter then thats it. And Sweety!! its not even close to the end of the story 'coz f u are a gullible,naive idiot then ur troubles just began.

I strongly believe that only two kinds of people can survive in this world upto 2073 ( 70 years life expectancy if your are 1990's kid ---waddup facebook silly posts reference ) . One is the fierce kind who live life on their own terms no matter wat. They can start from 'eff-off' and go till 'eff-u' if they think ur messing with their lives and wont even give a flinch. Well,i call them heroes, yeah...respect to those bunch of people who are atleast happy with themselves no matter  wat happens to others. The others are the goodness-personified kind who are ready to do anything for anyone, just so that the others are happy. These people, I call them angels , are probably made by god's own hands. Well lucky them, god did not give so much as a selfish brain to think abt themselves( or as a matter of fact think at all?! ). Thats it...see? Isnt it clear?? The angels are fine..the heroes are humping and we losers are left to lament. ( thats wat this whole loser-anon is abt remember?? ) Now the losers are a typical kind. There are many sub groups here: the fools,the trolls, the demons, the beaches(ahem-ahem ) and a lot more. It would take me an entire life to talk abt us,sorry i mean the losers. We sorry the losers ( wat is wrong with me?? ) are, in short the confused-kind. We do everything in a hurry. We dont wait to think. We just do. We are fascinated by the heroes and want to be just like them. We go ahead and mess lives . Are we satisfied after that? No, then we come across the angels feel ashamed and start messing our own effing lives too !!!!!....( AArgghhhhh....) . Why do we freaking run in between lives? Why do we want to satisfy everyone? Why are we not just proud of what we are? Cant we make our own freak-kind proudly?? do we have to keep shifting from angels/heroes and fail at being both and end up sucking our own luck? Yes seems like we do !!  we fail to realize that the only way we can have a closure on our minds is by accepting things as they are and go with the flow. How
many time have our people/friends told us this? How many times are we made to feel special by the best we happen to come across?? But still we fail to realize all the beautiful opportunties given to us and run after things that happen to hurt the deepest hoping for cleansing things that do not even exist anymore. We are our own grim-reapers.

But the funniest point of this endless post is that we know each and every single thing of this , dont we?? We know wats best for us, we know wats best for the world around us? Then why are we not able to come out it ? An empty mind is a devil's warehouse and we leased it to the Satan himself for eternity !! Just one simple thought with belief in anything thats close to your heart(may it be God or Art or any of ur passion ) will help us get out of it.

Coz someone said YOLO

wadddup people!!!!.....so finally i did start writing....yeah after 6 years of telling people on and on how much i love to read and write and when they ask me wow..so u blog?! then putting up a poker-face..now i rolled up my sleeves to write !!!!!

well people always do things in a rush....they start out lot of things..and suddenly whoosh !! stop...coz they have no clue wat to do next...same here !!! wat am i gonna do next?? wat am i going to write abt....?? the only things i do profusely are facebooking,watching videos on youtube, watsapping yada yadaa......then wat do people who basically spend all their time wasting time with other people wasting their time do??? *schmurr* they write blogs !!!!!! and blogs like this one in particular........

maybe i should start out my first blog post thanking all the important people arnd me who inspired me directly or indirectly to write this piece...to actually make me move my lazy bones and finally start typing something...but hey..no controversies !!! how about thanking them in person ?! *great idea girl !! * so anyway ,now that i have started i only told myself one thing.....write whenever possible and about whatever remotely sensible flashes my mind.....!!

so here i go....just wish me luck...i have my fingers crossed coz for the first time...i stopped being pessimistic and moved out to do something that i love...without a fright that i might actually suck at it and then start hating it...

#youonlyliveonce
#carpe diem