Mid-Life Deadlock

Trauma at the twenties

Roll all the eyes you want but just after 22 years and 4 months , I am already in a mid-life crisis. And yes I am counting even months because hey…tik tok tik !!! I mean umm…kal ho na ho?

Okay so here's the deal and hash tag 100% accuracy when I say everybody in this world around my age would relate to this, (unless you are already the CEO of your Facebook photography page or whatever man !! Congrats to you, you found your passion ) but we are one of those people who did engineering first and later started thinking,’well  nowz the time to follow your dreams ,Yayy’.

NAE NAE !!!!!

Now what?? We blindly did what our parents ‘suggested’, what our relatives thought best for us, we did something that wouldn’t get our neighbors talking and what would make us ‘normal kids’. Lucky are those weird kids who danced all night without doing their homework,  got punished by our teachers coz they had tennis practice and always failed the math test coz they found love in the hopeless place of music?(NO WAY). But then you are not one of those lucky ones now are you, coz ur probably sitting at ur corporate desks after hours of work-coding-testing-whatever and taking a short little much needed break only to read the rants of another loser !! The other day I was on tinder (I legit don’t know why I installed it) and while I was swiping around I realized I had no interest in talking to anyone, knowing anyone or ever go on a blind date but I am only here to look at other various MNC employed elves of this sprawling city !!!! Every now and then I read some inspirational quotes (ofcourse on facebook) or about folks successful at the smallest yet most meaningful-to-them sorts of things and somewhere at the bottom left part of my big belly a fire starts and I being the dork I am would again mistake it for hunger and eat and drink till it dies out. 

But just today when I woke up at 11.30am , I realised that I have crossed all kinds of lines that differentiate me from who I think I am and who I really am. Even my deluded brain is not gonna let me call myself an okay sort of person anymore because I have always dreamt big and talked big but never went the step ahead and did anything that’s big. Today when my closest friend woke up at 8 am and started prepping for CAT I finally came to my senses and saw the date only to realise I’m still well on my track of fucking up my life but I cannot let that happen anymore. I am not saying that this day would be different from any other days during which I felt the same strike but then I feel that this is a high time I should make it one and I really wish I could ( Did you see that? How cool was it having would should and could in the same sentence? Or was it lame AF? )

What’s my final point?

Did you guys watch the movie Julie and Julia ?? If you did not you should and it is an awesome movie. Especially we girls would love it and I am going to give it a shot to see where I can go with it. And just like cooking is Julie’s epicentre, mine will be Fitness, Career and Travel. Whenever I achieve my weekly/daily goal of anything related to the above three I will update my blog and share it with particularly no one or virtually everyone who is following this.

Today I started my vocabulary prep and did some exercises on Ratios and Exponents. As usual I sucked at Ratios(no surprise there) and am hoping that this day will be a propitious one and I will continue this journey.