Back again and not with a bang though, i've chosen the day just before my placement interview and during the most important phase of my training as the perfect day to write my third blog post !!
Why??
Umm....becoz this is who i am...this is wat m made of....head full of fuzzy logic ( none useful ) and heart patched , punctured and pathetic !! Confinement makes me talk...talk so much that mistakes i ve once done seem so small before the mistakes m about to do...all my life i was taught to shut up shut up and shut up but i never paid a heed did i? I trusted blindly, lived freely and laughed shamelessly in a world where i should have hidden, been non-existent, live a day and then let go. I was told about the world, i was given a chance to experiment...i experimented but alas did not make notes !?! first time it was fault, second time it was fatal and now it became a part of how i live ...Is this how i am supposed to go on? All the belief in me , the lessons given to me ...have i put them in vain?
I believed in bigger things, I ve always talked and thought beyond my age but never did things that reflected the same. I still acted like a dork and waited for redemption at every step. I believed my idiotic insights so much that I failed to bother about what my external senses are clearly showing me. Does the quote 'Better late than Never ' work for everyone...is it valid any more in this current world where most of the morals I learned as a child are bygone and obsolete ? I ve adapted myself to people and surroundings at every stage in my life and at every price i paid....then why was I slow this time? Why did i not learn to embrace silence when i spent the last 6 years of my life believing in the destruction caused by communication at wrong places? Why did i even see myself there? Haven't i had more important dreams to fulfil? Haven't i lived every single day of the past to come to this part where i make best decisions in life and create a future for myself?
Yes i did and yes i will. I still believe in redemption, righteousness and value. There is still so much to learn,so many new mistakes and their lessons await. I want to be the change i want to reflect in my life . I love the fact that my fingers move the fastest and wisest in confusion and castigation . I go on with a proud feeling that m going to try and retaliate to the situations around me,make wise choices and create a purposeful future for me.
PPS : I am probably ending this post rather strangely and with a lot of unspoken feeling but this is wat i want and this is how it shall be. Thank you if u can relate and sorry if u were expecting any scoop.
Why??
Umm....becoz this is who i am...this is wat m made of....head full of fuzzy logic ( none useful ) and heart patched , punctured and pathetic !! Confinement makes me talk...talk so much that mistakes i ve once done seem so small before the mistakes m about to do...all my life i was taught to shut up shut up and shut up but i never paid a heed did i? I trusted blindly, lived freely and laughed shamelessly in a world where i should have hidden, been non-existent, live a day and then let go. I was told about the world, i was given a chance to experiment...i experimented but alas did not make notes !?! first time it was fault, second time it was fatal and now it became a part of how i live ...Is this how i am supposed to go on? All the belief in me , the lessons given to me ...have i put them in vain?
I believed in bigger things, I ve always talked and thought beyond my age but never did things that reflected the same. I still acted like a dork and waited for redemption at every step. I believed my idiotic insights so much that I failed to bother about what my external senses are clearly showing me. Does the quote 'Better late than Never ' work for everyone...is it valid any more in this current world where most of the morals I learned as a child are bygone and obsolete ? I ve adapted myself to people and surroundings at every stage in my life and at every price i paid....then why was I slow this time? Why did i not learn to embrace silence when i spent the last 6 years of my life believing in the destruction caused by communication at wrong places? Why did i even see myself there? Haven't i had more important dreams to fulfil? Haven't i lived every single day of the past to come to this part where i make best decisions in life and create a future for myself?
Yes i did and yes i will. I still believe in redemption, righteousness and value. There is still so much to learn,so many new mistakes and their lessons await. I want to be the change i want to reflect in my life . I love the fact that my fingers move the fastest and wisest in confusion and castigation . I go on with a proud feeling that m going to try and retaliate to the situations around me,make wise choices and create a purposeful future for me.
PPS : I am probably ending this post rather strangely and with a lot of unspoken feeling but this is wat i want and this is how it shall be. Thank you if u can relate and sorry if u were expecting any scoop.
