When I thought of this blog post somewhere around late March
2017, I wanted its title to be “Why everyone deserved to be happy”. After today
i.e. 9 May 2017 when I might hopefully finish the post and publish it, I have
no idea which title will stick. It took me about a month and half to move my
fat ass into a very comfortable ‘legs-up; head in the hands’ couch position to
finally write the damn post (Ahem, Noo..I mean sweet post). That’s the problem with
us ‘Bathroom Philosophers’; our beautiful thoughts, nice catchy lines and
excellent puns vanish right after that ‘perfectly-hot-for-a-breezy-weather’
water stops from the showers !!! MEH !!
Now there are a one or two less than a million reasons as to
why I finally decided to write this post starting from “This is my way of
expressing or sharing myself, my thoughts, inspirations and motivations with
the world ” to “ I am not even doing
that one thing which I always think of doing and which I believe I love doing ”
and may have extended to “Shame on me if I call myself a blogger and can’t even
put out at least four posts in one fucking year”.
Diversion Alert: It is important that WHOEVER reading this
post knows that between 3.10 pm to 4.20 pm I wrote four lines!!! Four!!!! Kattappaa….Get
me that person who said I can write and I can write well !!! *Fuming*
Okay, this will probably me my most plainest, heart to heart blog post ever
with no censors no screenings and no proof reads(not that I ever have any but
this won’t even have me editing it , I promise !!). Also my humor in this post
may be dark, not as dark as how Amarendra Bahubali’s life turned out to be
after falling in love ( Back off Feminists) but yeah pretty dark for someone who
always looks happy, silly, talking kuch bhi and always pretend to be ever
perfect. Now everyone who knows me might have realized I am talking about me
but very few people who actually know me are laughing their ass off at you guys
!!! DON’T BLAME ME !!
The spark for this blog post struck when I was actually
going through a slight career shift and underwent some minor anxiety and dolefulness
(for the lack of a better word because depression would be an exaggeration).
Every night after my fair share of tears, fears and fights I used to go to bed
and wonder when did I actually become so weak to let these obvious changes to
life affect me so much and in turn hurt myself and the only people who always
had my back. I HAD EVERYTHING IN LIFE and by everything I mean everything a
normal person can have to be happy, be grateful for existence and to probably
occasionally have a coffee at Starbucks(Well, I still think it’s a waste of
good buck folks) or probably splurge on a shopping spree at ‘W’ (blaah blaah,
most girls will relate to what I am saying). Now I am no Ambani, no TATA BIRLA,
heck for all I care I don’t even earn as much as hero Alom does for releasing
his really “creative”(I was just stumped for words here) videos online. I can
bet Uber and Ola drivers earn more than me but that’s not the point.
The point is, I have extremely supportive and
never-questioning parents, an excellent well-paying and stress-free (most of
the times) job, great amazing caring friends but most of my life goes in
sulking about trivial stuff like “Heck, I gained 0.8kgs in the past one week”
or “Why isn’t my Instagram filter as good as earlier” or “Why did I not dance
as awesomely as that girl over there did” which to be honest are not even a big
deal to me !! My interests have always been different and my passions have been
different but time and again I keep wavering my path and fall into distractions
uncalled for and then start sulking that I am not rocking stuff that I don’t
even enjoy so much to begin with. But then another equally important point I realized
is that, even if I did know there is something that I love to do, I clearly am
not doing it the way it has to be done.
You know guys! (The serious part is about to begin.. you can stop
reading this and go back to your facebook scroll if you are not up for it)..
where was I? Ah, you know guys…really the world today is a place where NOTHING
IS IMPOSSIBLE. No no, stop right there, Don’t smirk, Don’t shake your heads and
now that you read till here, don’t you even go back to your walls !!
For someone who is probably reading my post on a smartphone
(or even better a tab?! a Mac?!) and just back from a super hectic day from
office( psssshhh I AM KIDDING), most probably in
Bangalore-Chennai-Gurgaon-Hyderabad or Pune(Okay, I really don’t think I have
readership in Pune :P ) living in an awesome flat in a super awesome society
and earning hawt bucks and living the ‘hip-IT’ life, is anything IMPOSSIBLE for
you guys? No tell me, suppose you love Badminton and sometime in your days wanted to really be a professional in it or you love photography so much and all you wanted before your 'software engineer' tag came along was to impress someone with your beautifully captured pics or you
loved body building and was like 'Bhai ab toh John Cena banunga', anything anything !! Can you tell me truthfully that if you
give your best to it, dedicate a sincere amount of time to it and work on it
you cannot achieve it??
Kya aap ne kabhi socha “Waah kya mast app banaya yaar”,
“Waah kitni sundar hogyi oye”, “Arey ye meri friend choti celeb hogyi re”.??? And
then you knew exactly why they are who they’ve become today don't you? Whats more disturbing is that you know that
even you can do that, isnt it?!! All that’s keeping you from it is yourself, your
torpidity and YOU not believing that YOU deserve to be at your best.
Gone are those days when we took our inspirations from great
men sitting miles away or leaders from about a century past. This is the ERA of
Passion and YOLO my friends and we see many people are becoming super great
just by being themselves and giving their life and time for something they love
!! There are a million examples, a million !! You know them, you see them all around
you. They were so simple and they were nobody a few years ago and now suddenly
they are that SOMEONE !! "That GUY who rocked that show and That GIRL who cracked a tech giant's code" !!!! Very common people achieving very common things while attaining fame and glory for themselves just because they put their heart,soul,time and sweat into it.
Now who read my posts know that I am emotional about endings (also suck at them) but what I meant to express from this post is that, there was no
need for me to be crushed about happenings in life because if I am truthful, I
have no regrets in life and when I look back at it, I was never deprived of any
targets when I put my hard work into it. There was nothing that was denied to me
but then nothing that was handed to me easily either. I never felt entitled and
I worked to get everything I ever got. And I know there are more than 50% of
you along with me when I say the word “I”. You’ve been there, we’ve been there
!! We’ve all felt dejected, lost and said that success and fame went to some
specially gifted people or unusually talented people but if we really open our
eyes we see that here today in 2017 such reasons are not valid anymore. Those
excuses are as old as The Red Woman in GoT season 6(or is it 5? Hehe ) and as
ineffective as XXX: The Return of Xander Cage's promotions in India.
Now I know my words won’t change things much and I am not trying to
change the world one post at a time but I am just putting it out there that YOU
are not alone but then you will not be happy unless you shed off your
inhibitions and start putting soul into your life. Into what you do or who you
want to become. Plus I am not someone who goes about spreading messages and distributing ghyan to people who never asked for it but I felt this post was important because I am directing it to my friends, to all 20 year olds and to all those people who I see everyday whether or not I know them by name. I wanted to say with 100% assurance that every single one of us is going through the same thoughts while we go to sleep finally thinking of Prabhas pulling that chariot and Rana flexing his back muscles and ITS OKAY (No judging :P ). Wait, whats OKAY is thinking of Prabhas and being worried about not being at your bestest. But whats NOT OKAY is not doing anything about it. Whats NOT OKAY is ignoring my post and then going back to sulking and Whats MOST NOT OKAY is not believing that you can !!!
I am not good at giving suggestions or stringing two full English lines
without using the F word at least thrice but I hope you guys will be real 90’s kids (now
uncles and aunties at 23 like me) and follow your passions. My post endings are about as dumb as that idiot Clay from 13 reasons why... So Umm Bye
bye.. but hey we can continue interacting in comments or DM or wherever bruh
!!!
